Thoughts to Share

So here goes. This is my first blog as I try to turn a new leaf and join the world of bloggers. I don't have a great deal of deep thoughts to share today, just a couple things that made me go... hmmmm.... I thought I'd share:

Firstly, Failure is one of the greatest forms of inspiration. Leigh Mitchell Hodges once said, "Failure is often that early morning hour of darkness which precedes the dawning of the day of success." For some that early morning hour is just that, a short amount of time before things fall into place. For others, that early morning hour seems to stretch out for ages and you just have to remember that it is only a matter of time before dawn will break and everything will be okay.

Secondly, is waiting. The adage goes, 'patience is a virtue.' I have learned that it is a virtue that comes and goes depending on the situation and all people possess it to some degree. Being patient really doesn't make waiting any easier though, even if all you're waiting for is bad news. Even if what is happening falls into the realm of 'prepare for the worst, hope for the best.'
You know, it reminds me of being a little kid and going to Disneyland for the first time. That giddy feeling of excitement in your stomach, though you're not sure if you're excited happy or excited nervous or maybe, just maybe, you could be excited scared. (That last one could just be me, scared to death my first time on Space Mountain - something about rocketing around in the pitch black darkness...) So you stay up late and get up early. You're dressed and ready before your parents can yell at you to hurry up. And then you get there only to wait. Hurry up to wait in line. Run to the next ride, hurrying to wait again. As though the sooner you get in line, the faster the line's going to move. Yeah, right. That's what it feels like. Hurrying to wait.

Yeah. It sucks.

Blogging

I've come to find that maybe I'm not so good at this whole blogging thing... I'm going to have to work on it. Three posts in three months... Today is the day...

Next Step

So my first manuscript is on its editing adventure... hopefully I won't get ripped to shreds, but we'll see. Meanwhile.. I have already written about 250 pages for the second manuscript in the series... mind you I didn't intend for this to be a series, but I couldn't help falling a little in love with my main characters. The voices in my head keep telling me more little secrets that just make me want to keep going. So we'll see how far this goes.... Secondly... I have started another project that I am very excited for... maybe I'll say more on this later... but for now that's my update.

Catching Up

So a few months back I received an email from a long time friend. We go all the way back--elementary school... Anyway, she just made a comment that has stuck with me ever since I received that email--it went something like this: "It has only taken me 27 years, but I think I have found it"
The 'It' being referred to would be... in answer to the universally asked question: What do you want to do/be when you grow up?
I was so excited for her, but at the same time, I started to wonder about myself. Isn't this always the situation to instigate self reflection?
It occurred to me, not too long after these conversations, the one with my friend via email and the one with myself in my head, that it had been staring me in the face for years, I just hadn't done anything about it.
I wanted to write!
I used to write a lot. All the time, but it has been almost ten years since I had written anything. Not so much because I didn't want to or didn't have inspirations...but life just got in the way. After a couple long talks, this time out loud with my oldest friend and another with my husband, and much self reflection, I had to start chasing the dream I didn't realize was there.
So this is where my journey began... Working full time, a toddler at home and another baby on the way, sleep was suddenly at the bottom of my list...eight months later, adding a newborn to the mix. This bug bit me and I haven't stopped since. I have since finished my first manuscript and have several other projects I am working on at the same time.
Hey- if I'm going to be awake with a baby anyway, I might as well be working toward something...
I have no idea what, if anything, will come of this, but only time will tell...