Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Begin Again

Wow, it's been a while, hasn't it?

What, like, 3... close to 4 months? Yeah, sorry about that. Things have been a bit hectic to say the least around here. So let's start again, shall we?I know I talk about the Husband and Kidlets a fair bit here, but brace yourself for all the family-ish stuff you're about to get.

Here's a quick recap of my last few months...
I had a baby. (3 weeks earlier than planned.)

He actually looks more like this now:

 While on maternity leave, I started revisions on a project.

Mom was diagnosed with late stage cancer.

Revisions went on hold.

Just before Christmas, Grandma lost her battle with cancer.
My brother, sister, and me with Grandma.
Revisions still on hold.

Husband's position at work changed as did his shift ... going from a 12-hour graveyard

to 12-hour day shift. Yay to having him home at night, boo to trying to juggle daycare for the kidlets.

I decided to take an extra week off at the end of my maternity leave ... putting my total time off at 13 weeks. So much had happened in such a short time. I was still adjusting.

I'd been back to work for 2 days and then Mom lost her battle with cancer.

My sister, Mom, and me.

Took another 2 weeks of leave from work.

And now, I'm trying to begin again.

So for now, we are all still reeling a bit and taking some time to figure out what the "new normal" is for our family. Hope you guys bear with my inconsistency for a bit longer.

A couple last thoughts for the moment:

#1) We don't use the word "hate" in our family. It's one of those words we have on the "list of bad words" the kids are not supposed to use. But I have to say, I hate cancer. I always have. I always will. To all those fighting the fight, supporting those who are fighting the fight, or honoring those who've lost their fights, my heart goes out to you. You will always be in my thoughts. And also...
Did I already tell you that?

#2) I wanted to say a quick thanks to you guys who have stuck around, reading, commenting, or just lurking on the blog. I know you're there and even when I wasn't blogging I knew you were there. You guys mean a lot to me and I wanted to make sure you knew how much I appreciate each and every one of you!


Sarah Bromley said...

Hugs, Windy. It's been a hell of a rough road. You take all the time you need.

Amanda Bonilla said...

*HUGS* You know we're here for you! <3

S Soumphonephakdy said...

We still need to come see the little one. He's so adorable!

And again, we are sorry for your loss. They say the first year is always the hardest so just keep your head up and be around people that you love and that love you.

Debra Spears-Turner said...

I don't blame you, I hate it too. But I love you - so know we are all here for you as you get settled back into your new normal.

Windy Aphayrath said...

Sarah - Thanks for the understanding. At some point, I'll get to that smooth, well-paved road, right?

Amanda - Hugs back!

Sot - Yes! Come meet him, he's adorbs! Sam and Linda want to take him home every time they see him! And thanks for the advice. Luckily we got lots who we love who love us back ;)

Deb - Thanks dearest.

Jenni Elyse said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you lost both your grandma and mom in such a short period of time. I can only imagine what you're going through. *hugs*

Windy Aphayrath said...

Jenni - thanks for the hugs. i so greatly appreciate those.

Martin Willoughby said...

I can't even imagine how you feel at the moment.

I hope life improves.

Windy Aphayrath said...

Martin - Thank you. Me too.

Alicia Gregoire said...

Wow, Windy. I knew about the baby but not everything else. Hugs to you and I hope everything balances out soon.

Nichole Giles said...

So sorry again about your grandma and mom. But congrats (again) on the little one (who is so adorable).

I hate cancer too. Just sayin.

Good luck finding normal. I hope to see you for a #writenight whenever you get to a place where you feel like you can.

Miss you!

L.T. Elliot said...

Your little man is darling! Cancer sucks rocks. Boulder-sized rocks. Mountain-sized rocks. Cancer has stolen many of my loved ones and while some of those moments taught me so much about who they were, how much fight was in them, how much stronger we are than we believe, and how much more I can love someone than I thought, I still hate cancer.

But I always love you. I am so sorry for all you've gone through. So grateful to call you friend. So proud of you for enduring. Love to you, friend. Love to you.

Angie said...

Your baby is adorable. I have to say I hate cancer too! It sucks. I'm sorry for your losses and all the craziness. Hang in there. I'm pulling for you! *hugs*